Saturday, June 9, 2012

What am I Doing

It is nearly 12:00 on a Saturday and I find myself drawn to not only researching fashion internships but creating a blog. However, the only problem with both of these is that they are incredibly self-indulgent. I'm enrolled in History Education graduate classes in Fall 2012 and after four years of waffling between law school and teaching...I chose teaching. Under the surface I've always wanted to be a teacher. Partly because I love History and want to share that love with other people. What's that you say, I may be in for a let down when I find myself with unwilling participants of my knowledge. I'm fully aware. But thats part of the draw. I want to make History palatable for the kids who have no interest and try, without pretentiousness, to show that history is important. Although some have tried to point me in the direction of a P.h.D, I know would be more enraged at some snotty 20 year old who has watched too much history channel trying to correct me than a 15 year old texting her boyfriend during a lecture. Also, I want to have fun in my class. And doing game show style review sessions with candy sounds so much fun than causing terror with a 20 page research paper due the Monday after Spring Break (That has happened to me. TWICE). Yet...I've always been drawn to fashion and it hasn't been recently that I've realized how entrenched fashion is in my life. Finally, I've come to a point of self-confidence in which I've really started experimenting with fashion. I love the hunt of finding new pieces, of putting together a subtly flashy outfit, the thrill of finding the perfect piece. I follow tons of fashion blogs, research trends, and like to day dream about working at Kate Spade or J. Crew or Jill Sander. But I realize I'm not cut out for that. I know I'm meant to be a teacher. I can't count the number of times people have told me I would be a good teacher. And while its terrifying to think I might be missing out on something that would make me happy, I have to trust my instincts. Long-windily,  I come to my conclusion of why I started this blog. To share my passions. To be part of the fashion world, even though its a tiny bleep, and have an outlet for my inspirations.

Among fashion, I'm a beginner gardener, a decent baker, lazy crafter, and avid reader. 

Posted by Lauren @ 11:39 PM

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